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I am Izay. A teen living for about a decade and six years. A proud Bedista and an Iska. I am a partial naturalist, a self proclaimed science whiz and diagnosed with the illness shopaholic. I seem to have everything every girl would want yet it seems like my life never fails to surprise me with all the challenges it brings.

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Eating: Taho!
Browsing: Math sites
Reading: Eng12 Books
Listening to: Avatar
Thinking of: SHOPPING
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Craves: more shopping

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Before anything else, I’mma show you my grades so far (getting tired to see my other grades)

Proud for getting 1’s for the first two subjects. Soo proud to get a perfect uno in Physics10 however knowing the fact that it really is unoable makes me sad. As for Eng12, I’m pretty proud of it too because I HATE reading books and absolutely abhor anything related to english (gramar wise yada yada). I suck there…. or probably because my little sister is too good she brags that I’m stupid. So yeah… I tried slapping this to her face that I wasn’t that bad, she just yawned. -.-

Can’t wait to get my math grade (which I know won’t be in the line of 1… unless I recieve a miracle hahahaha) and my other subjects which I believe (hopefully not) will not be in the line of 1 as well. PFFTTTT

Sembreak’s here… and I’m trying to manage to survive the boredom. So far I killed 1 week and a weekday. 2 more weeks and 4 more day. PFFFFFT

What are the things I’ve been doing? Well…. I’ve been

•  Writing a book on things to do when bored in every aspect (hopefully get it published here in the net in a .pdf form BWAHAHHAAHAH
• Exercising through the dance revo, hula hoop and treadmill
• Trying to be great (not good) at Guitar Hero HAHAHAHAHA
• yada yada

My hell day/week was over and i’m pretty much NOT eager to get the results except in math (which I got this day). And guess what… I got another UNO! But sadly at that same day we have our first trigo quiz… I only managed to answer one question (which consisted of two sub-questions) and the rest two questions was left blank. BWISET. So i’m really not yet that happy.. in fact I’m even more scared because in about one week we will be taking the supposed-to-be-hardest-exam-evah… so.. i really could not afford to fail again. I hope to get it right this time…. I want/need a highscore. So in short… I must study

On Monday, UP will be holding the thing called “Dancing in September”. I’ll be part of it (along with my PE classmates) to dance a somewhat barn themed ballet XD. Just a few hours ago we had our pre recital. For some reason… our teacher did not say good nor very good to us… GOD what the hell does that mean??? Are we gonna fail? BWISET ulit..

Now that I think about it… it seems like I always see myself FAILING now that the sem is almost over. On GEOG since I flunked (not sure but I know.. I think) my exam… and our report was pretty much lame.. on FA wherein I think my grade is kind of low… BWISET… And now PE… BWISET talaga… the only subject I THINK i’m doing good at is eng12. I THINK hahahah until I get my hands on our quiz results for the second exam which I think i didn’t do well… DARN IT! Most of the time during the end of the sem/quarter… I always have the tendency to become pessimistic. So just bear with me. But I think this is for the better so that I can always pursue for the best.

One more day and it’s another weekend. What’s my plan? To make a ballet tutu XDDD, finish my Geog and Eng12 paper (or atleast get started) and things like that XD

owkay…. college is getting on my nerves. My title as a math equation? WTF. Last August 25, 2008 was a very happy day. It was our third anniversary (weeeeeee) and since it’s a holiday, we went out and of course spent the day at none other than Shang Plaza XDD My parents dropped us there and they wanted to join us for lunch. They will be the ones paying BUT I didn’t allow them. It was OUR day ^_^ So.. we had our lunch at Green Tomato, shopped for outfits, stayed at Coffee Beanery (the seats at Starbucks were filled!) and watched Wall-E (omg the movie was just so adorable!!!!!) We bought a stuffed toy at sleep care and went to Megamall because I was hoping to find a neoprint stand there… but i was stupid. I think neoprints can only be located at Japan. How stupid can I be… ENVIOUS HERE! So since we were there, and god the crowd there was BIG, I bought cream puffs as pasalubong to my family (but I ate most of it in the end BWAHAHAHAHA) XD.

Ok… after the happy happy extremely happy day, I got back to the real world… stupid college life. Got my midterms grade… I passed however I’m really not happy with my grade… I should have gotten a higher one EXCEPT of stupid rushed arithmetic mistakes. 9 / 3 = 2????? HAHAHAHAHAHAH I know! Stupid! PLUS my pen was a little bit jolty at that time… so in short kumapal yung lines ko sa graph.. wtf!! Akala nung teacher ko tuloy 2 intersection point! ANG DAYA but I couldn’t argue my way there… hay naku.. Everything was right.. it was the pen! (even my points were right BUT she thought that it got intersected)… to cut the long story short.. I’m pissed. And in about a week… 3rd Long Exam on Math will come.. ALONG ALONG ALONG with the dreaded English12 Long Exam (i have to memorize by hear the main events of 4 (yes, FOUR) super duper long books that contained A LOT of story in it… - the characters, events.. to the minutest detail). How the hell am I gonna do that? Worse part is I got a 1.25 at my first long exam.. so the pressure is here.. stupid.. STUPID

Ok, instead of typing I should be studying. 2 reports next week while next next week will be 2 super hard long exams ON THE SAME DAY (walang awa) and 1 wanna be long exam (hahaha nakiepal pa kasi) probably on the same day rin… shet shet shet…

My previous post said my happiness and feeling of accomplishment when I got an “uno” on my first long exam at Math. Days after, we took our second long exam which for an unknown reason didn’t do my best (then when I got home, i reanswered everything and learned from my mistakes). I failed. Yes, terrifying.

To cut the long story short, a few hours ago, we were taking our math midterms. 0_0 I don’t know what will happen. Oh please let me just pass, i couldn’t afford another failure!

Changed my nails again (this time mom tagged along) hahahahaha

Even though my grades are doing grade (and in changing it to 1-5 type of grades, somewhat I’m still getting uno’s or something).. just recently, our first long exam in math already arrived. While the teacher was saying that there were 3 students who got MORE than perfect and 8, i think, who got uno and she was calling their names. I was already saying to my seatmates the phrase “*giggle* matagal pa ako XD* but then suddenly I heard her call Krizia, i hesitated to stand up because I’m pretty sure I’ll be called later. Than she was looking around, I stood up a little staring at her then she looked at me and said “Isabel?” OMG in my head I was panicking. Is this true? And yet she haven’t called that much students yet. So does that mean I’m that high? I looked at my paper and saw my grade, 46.25/50… then saw beneath that i’m a 92.5 percent. I couldn’t believe it. I was AWE STRUCK. Really… I got this grade? And all along I only wanted to pass.

The end of the class, she said that her uno is 93. I felt like I want to cry since I only need a 0.5 MORE percent. So i rechecked. Then I noticed something was wrong. In short, to cut the long story short.. my REAL percentage is 93.25% WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I have an uno!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG

Suddenly, new challenges is up ahead. Our second long exam AND the terrifying MIDTERMS. I must not be a fool and MUST STUDY HARDER.

I MUST believe in myself but not to believe in a way I won’t study anymore. I MUST STUDY HARDER in order to get another uno. So yeah, ONE and only? Hope not!!

Tamad ako. Or atleast tinatamad. I’m back home and the feeling of comfy-ness settled in way much sa akin. I know that since I’m a college student, I should quit playing (online games) and watching too much tv lalo na’t nasa UP ako pero for certain reasons talagang tinatamad ako. The time I could have used for finishing this book for my Eng12 subject I wasted by playing or sleeping. Blame it to the weather! But either way kung mainit I wouldn’t bother reading hahaha so I take my blaming to the weather back. In fact, I’m loving the weather except the fact that since I have to walk around the campus, my feet goes ICKY and stuff. Hahaha. But still I get to wear (proudly) my white UP Siglo Jacket, I know ENVY ME PEOPLE! hahaha although I know that the black one is the hype, i would’ve bought the black one BUT it turns out it wasn’t available so why buy another day when I’m on the line somewhat first right? So yeah. ENVY!!!

Today is the first day the UPCAT was held and my sister, and a barkada friend *points to Betsy* took the exam. Goodluck to those who finished taking it today and to those who will be taking it tomorrow. I just felt happy while they were feeling terrified because afterall I passed the UPCAT, I passed the stage they are facing now. Happy! And since Kina was with a batchmate of hers and we ate at Max since we arrived at Katipunan way too early, there was also this teen who was wearing a white siglo jacket (nooooooo! I’m supposed to be one of a kind hahaha but still atleast she knows I’m a UP student!) then at around 10:45, almost everybody in Max (4/5 tables) was rushing to get out LOL. The waiters were all running and panicking hahahahah. Gotta love that moment. Turns out, they were all gonna take the UPCAT hahaha I THOUGHT SO TOO! THEY LOOKED LIKE INCOMING FRESHIES! hahaha ang sama ko when in fact I myself am still a freshie XDDD

Wala, just telling lang random things that happened. Stil loving my nails (must force myself to take a picture sometime XD) but I want to change it na. T_T Oh and can anyone buy me a chiffon skirt I’ve been dying to buy in Topshop? The poffy ones. It costs 2.5k. If only I could buy it (sadly when it comes to spending my own money, I’m so miser and my parents insisted that I cut off my “gastos” for they already bought me 2 jackets of UP which was so not needed and crocs -I didn’t ask them to buy me that but since I tripped/slipped because the floor was slippery, they had to buy me that … -.- ew-) So yeah, to those who would want to give that to me *points to Lenlen* ehem hahahaha XDDD oh and yeah, mom said she wouldn’t buy that for me anyway since it’s chiffon and since I commute, it might XD FLY! hahahahha That’s why we, the smart beautiful people, invented SHORTS! hahaha XD

I’m happy. Ok yun na yun hehehe kidding XD

The past few weeks, I know I could have posted about “stuff” but instead I chose to study (daw), sleep or do something else. So what is happening to me? Well… maybe I’ll just start from when I learned that I was going to study at UP.

Wanna know something? I felt cheated by my old school (sorry but it’s kinda true) since my sister and the rest of the family studied in a science school… their standards and the standards of our school is very different. The moment I learned that I’ll be studying at UP, I felt sad. I know that the best of the best goes there and there is this big possibility that I will look like a failure to all of them… I was afraid to every class I went to. I already concluded that I’ll fail (to atleast one subject or two)

But now, after weeks of taking up the first long exams in almost every subject.. the results I’ve been getting is just.. simply happy. I know that compared to some this scores might be low but hey, back in my high school, when your 10 points from the passing grade, it means your already “smart” so yes I feel proud and accomplished XD

Physics 10 - 48/50 YESHHHHHHHHH!! (although my seatmate got a 49/50 but hey she’s a DOST scholar!)
Eng 12 - 92/100 YESH BABY! (and as far as I know, i’m the second highest in our class *dances)
Math 17 - Uhhhh hahahaha

The dreaded math 17 however hasn’t been checked pa *pokes the lazy teacher* but surely my score won’t be as high as the ones that I got. As far as I know I have lots of mistakes already sa true or fale which points to 1.5 per number. I think i have 3 or more mistakes BOOO. Pero sana *prays* all my calculations are correct.

So now that I got this scores.. I should better continue doing what I’m doing. I should never conclude and be intimidated for after all… I managed to pass the standards of UP meaning in some way or another, I’m smart

Oh and talking about random stuff.. I just had my first visit to a parlor without the company of my parents last week and guess what i did *dance* NAIL ART! My nails are purdeehhh now and I want to change already but my mom insists to just test if it’ll last for two weeks BOOOO

Uhm.. I know i have something else to talk about. Oh yeah, I have crocs DUN DUN DUN! But i have to have one since well… i don’t have a car -.- so I walk the streets and when it rains my feet gets ew XD

No, I’m not having wrinkles or mood swings nor menopause (though how I wish I’ll have that now XD) but rather everything in our household seems to change. First of all since I have been staying in my dorm for about 75% of a week.. I don’t know what has been happening in our house. I was shocked when my grandfather arrived last night (who usually goes home during the weekends) saying that their hotel is already closed. What?!? As far as I know since I was born, he had already been working there.. he had to go through, I think, three generations of presidents and hearing that the hotel closed simple says that, in some way, his whole life did. I know that he is already old and that he no longer is required to work but I hoped that he had gotten a better way of retiring (he did not even get his retiring fee and he WORKED there for three generations). It just saddens me because of all his hardwork, he got nothing. Oh how I wish they would go to the states and enjoy life there. I just love my grandparents seeing them like this just saddens me T_T

This post is not supposed to be entirely just about my grandfather, but the reality that I AM GETTING OLD. Who knows, soon I’ll be working, living on my own and things like that. Oh how I miss my childhood days. You know the moment wherein you were so carefree and the only trouble in your head is the scar you just got while you were playing hide and seek with your classmates.. now everytime I go out of the dorm I think about my safety, the money i’ll be spending, looking at my watch constantly, the requirements I have to pass, my schedule for the day.. all that. Last wednesday I tripped (funny I know) but had to run amidst the pain I felt because I was running late for my next class. See! The thing I troubled most about back then is nothing for me already..

Have I done anything significant since I began breathing? Now that I realize that time is ticking

currently i’m here at my dorm enjoying the aircon bwahahaha. And as usual i’m really not studying. Maybe my mind just got a little too tired to study but i must learn how to control myself… haay. 8 promise mag-aaral na ako XD.

So ballet? I chose this as my PE and at first I was kind of terrified kasi akala ko my classmates would be experts ng ballet T_T pero pagdating doon hindi naman pala. Ang ration was probably 1:3 lang pala PHEW hehehe. So how was it? Painful!! Sobra hehehehe The floor exercises are so awful but eventually matuto rin ako.

The real reason why i decided to blog about our ballet is because I HAVE (you know.. the girl thing XD) tapos we had our ballet today ehh it’s like my second day so super overflow hahaha. Una sinabi ko muna sa ka-block ko na ka same pe ko tapos sabi niya kausapin ko nalang si teacher. Pero syempre I have to change and of course napaka-uncomfortable ng feeling ko tapos sinabi ko kay prof while nagsisign siya ng attendance and sabi niya sige lang. Edi floor exercises (by that i meant nakahiga kami sa floor and we do things.. unspeakable things hahaha JOKE lang XD). Doon palang medyo nawala na ako ng control. Of course nakahiga tapos itataas yung paa ng sobra sobra tapos XDDDD May exercise pa nga na we really have to open up our thighs so ang SHET TALAGA!!! hahahahahaha. Tapos bar exercises na.. nag jumping pa kami so NAKAKAINIS TALAGA. Di lang jump parang pag nag land plie pa (that’s bending both your knees sa opposite sides >_< so parang hello super kumalat na siya hahaha XD

I didn’t feel pretty and graceful just as every ballerina should. I felt dirty, sloppy and just plain disgusting. Tapos after tomorrow ballet ulit hahahaha sige lang bring it on!!! XDDD